By Thomas A., Friday, March 13, 2009 12:02:44 AM
I carried a angel icon I got from the Milwaukee, Wis. museum of fine arts. I have been carying this angel for 2 years. Last week the angel I carried was lost. What does this mean?

By lupe, Tuesday, March 10, 2009 02:02:49 PM
.com Monday, December 17, 2007 Newspaper article full version In 3 more days it will have been two months since Meli's death, and her departure pains me today just as it did that very moment that i found her cold and lifeless. It is as if each second of my life someone is cutting open my heart in two and adding salt to that wound. It feels as if my soul died with her. Every time that I go into her room, which is countless times a day, I relive that horror of her leaving; I ask God where he was. Why didn't he allow me to save her? Why didn't he let me find her in time? Why didn't he choose me to take her place? I would have been ready to do that for her; I would do the same for any of my other children. As I write this, I am in her bedroom asking for answers to questions as I read over letters that she left me at different times. I tremble from pain and from anger at the futility of it all. It is so ironic, just a few months ago she and I had a long conversation about life, death, injustice, and the hypocrisy with which she was living through at that time;the pain that her boyfriend and another teen caused her. I remember that I told her: "Look, this flower; it is very pretty and so are you. Neither you nor any one else should cry over someone. You can do better than that." Her answer was: "It is not fairl everything that is happening to me. I hate going to school. I hate the schools here in Andrews. If you don't have money, if you're not the son or daughter of a rich person, if you are not of the right color, and if you are not the teacher's pet then you are nothing. You are left out. And they take away what you once had an what you worked so hard to achieve." I told her that in life nothing was fair; but, but that there was always an answer, and that things had a way of working out. I told her that death was no solution. She smiled at me and said: "Mami, there is no answer in standing up for myself against some people, I was sent to Saturday school. In cheer leading I was taken out even though I used to get up at 4:00 am to get ready to go to practice; then they replaced me with someone who used to miss countless times. But since she was seen as more favorable. Since then my world started crashing. I sure hope Crystal doesn't have to go through this" "It also isn't fair, Mami, all the times you have gone to school asking for help and they don't give it to you. The school does things as it sees fit. It is like my coach said when I lost my place at Nationals and was placed as an alternate, 'I hope it's ok because if not, you can get out. There are several that can take your place.'" "You see, Mami. I am tired of being hurt, tired of constantly coming home crying. I am tired of putting on a happy face and pretending that nothing matters after being hurt countless times. I lock myself in my room so that no one sees my pain." Many saw my daughter; she went through thousands of things, but only I saw her tears, her pain and her disenchantment. Many people contributed to her decision. Even I myself contributed to it because in the beginning when I found the first letters some months back in which she said goodbye, I did ask for help. That person that I reached to for help told me: "I guarantee that she is not going to do anything. She just wants attention." I hope that professional who told me that saw the obituary so that she can see if my daughter is now getting her attention. I wonder if all that is sufficient for that person. If she is paying, maybe she will not give such advice again. Hopefully the school is paying closer attention. Meli with her death, ironic as it is, has saved already more than one life. She has also opened a Pandora's box. Andrews is going to realize that indeed there is a problem in our schools with some of the personnel, some of the leaders, and with our youth. Like Meli said: "If we all dropped the act and the injustice; if instead we worked together, we would change not only Andrews but the entire world." I remember her smiling as she told me: "Why can't we all instead be friends, Mami?" I only hope that through her death others can identify their own feelings. If they too are suffering, hopefully they will not ignore it because the pain will remain. Choosing to ignore problems and pain will not make them go away. The problem will grow each day like a monster. So I ask that everyone help our youth. Don't allow a single young person to die in this manner. Don't let another mother die from pain as she continues living. Right now I am not sure hot to go about living; I sometimes don't want to go on. My life has been changed forever. I feel empty. I am in tears and in pain. I do not wish this on my worst enemy. Right now I should be saving for her Christmas present which was going to be the down payment on her new Avalanche. Instead, I'm saving for her tombstone. I should be seeing that her college applications be sent in on time and not putting flowers at her grave. May God hold my princess in His arms. May He give her peace and the justice that no one here wanted to give her. Melissa's mom, Lupe Flores Miss Meli Marie... 1:44 AM 10 Comments 6 Kudos 2 Kudos 1 Kudos 0 Kudos Powered by Google Translate English Albanian Arabic Bulgarian Catalan Chinese Croatian Czech Danish Dutch Estonian Filipino Finnish French Galician German Greek Hebrew Hindi Hungarian Indonesian Italian Japanese Korean Latvian Lithuanian Maltese Norwegian Polish Portuguese Romanian Russian Serbian Slovak Slovenian Spanish Swedish Thai Turkish Ukrainian Vietnamese Print Edit Remove Back to Blog List | Next Post: Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night Submit Sunny Dee™ This is a very heartfelt blog and I admire you for writing it. She was always very dedicated to everything and anything she loved. She had a good mind and heart. She saved my life . . . i choose to believe that it was her. I fell off my drum major stand and the way i fell off could've cracked my neck, i ended landing gently without any pain. I do believe that it was her the whole time. I miss her so much. I remember one of the days she came to English class crying because of what her boyfriend did to her . . . all i could do was hug her and just talk and joke with her. She threatened to super glue his locker shut. I laughed and said that we should do that. I'm very glad that i had the chance to be her friend and i took it. I know I at least did something right. ♥ I love you Mama Flores. xoxo aira Posted by Sunny Dee™ on Monday, December 17, 2007 - 8:22 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] Susie Verde™ Mama Flores, I love you so much. This made me cry. It's so truthful. All Meli ever did was help those around her and try to ease our pain, yet, it seems like we tried and failed to ease the pain she felt. I hope nobody ever has to go through what all of your family & all of her friends has gone through. I love you so much. Posted by Susie Verde™ on Saturday, January 12, 2008 - 6:14 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] tired of dumb ass people in my life.. my name is leeanne..and no i dont know your daughter..i stumbled onto her page by accident one day..ever since then ive been talking to luci..she is so awsome..i know how much pain your in..i myself lost a child..i lost my unborn baby..even though i didnt have the chance to hold my baby it still hurts..i would constintly hold my tummy and say i love you baby mommy and daddy cant wait to meet you..then one day its all over..you and your family are so amazing your always in my thoughts and prayers..i wish that i could have had the chance to meet your wonderful daughter but i know that she is up there playing with my baby and i couldnt be any happier..well i just thought that id drop a line to tell you that this article is beautiful..it brought tears to my eyes.. 3, leeanne Posted by tired of dumb ass people in my life.. on Saturday, February 02, 2008 - 9:23 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] &* Katrina &* :] im always here for you mamma and if you ever need anything from me.. im here for you no matter what!! night threw day or time..... anything if you need to talk or anything im here !!!! i love you so much my words can not xplain how much i love and care for your family !! love katrina Posted by &* Katrina &* :] on Friday, March 07, 2008 - 9:00 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] Aaron this is the first time i read this wow so true i promise i won stop trying to make the school realise wats going on i miss her so much she changed my life for ever i love you and ur fam love aaron morgan Posted by Aaron on Thursday, March 27, 2008 - 10:45 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] Aaron this is the first time i read this wow so true i promise i won stop trying to make the school realise wats going on i miss her so much she changed my life for ever i love you and ur fam love aaron morgan Posted by Aaron on Thursday, March 27, 2008 - 10:45 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] Aaron this is the first time i read this wow so true i promise i won stop trying to make the school realise wats going on i miss her so much she changed my life for ever i love you and ur fam love aaron morgan Posted by Aaron on Thursday, March 27, 2008 - 10:45 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] Aaron this is the first time i read this wow so true i promise i won stop trying to make the school realise wats going on i miss her so much she changed my life for ever i love you and ur fam love aaron morgan Posted by Aaron on Thursday, March 27, 2008 - 10:45 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] Nataliya This made me cry. Posted by Nataliya on Friday, May 02, 2008 - 6:56 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] howster what inner strength you must have to write this,bless you Posted by howster on Monday, December 08, 2008 - 11:07 PM [Reply to this] [Remove] [Block User] please. please help me silvya

By lupe, Sunday, March 08, 2009 12:54:29 AM
thank you my dear wendy for your prayers it mean a lot to me and of course we are not mad for silvya not answering our questions at last i am thankful that i find wendy and she is praying for me ,sometimes they told me to get over , and sometimes that meli is in hell ,it hurts so much and i am sure my baby is in haven .only it its so hard to accept she is no longer here ,because it was something that naver should happen ,i ask to so much peplo to help me save her and no one help me ,and the day i find her hanging in her closet i was so devastated it was like it was a nightmare sometimes i wonder why this and that i love this girl so much her death was so so not fair i have a page on my space in her memory it is melissa awareness ,if you have my space go to the blog the news paper full version and you see how beautiful she was and the hell she was living in this ugly town .this year in this town 4 hang thenself and like 8 are death for accidents or something else so you see is so hard for me all this thank you to all for your support .and thank you silvya if some day you read this, for this site it seems we help each other only i hope i can heald and find peace in my heart

By Angela, Saturday, March 07, 2009 11:59:46 PM
hi sylvia i read the mahority of ur books and i love them i just wanted to know if my boyfriend truly means what he says when he tells me he loves me and for me its hard to believe him because i been hurt plenty of time however i didnt like him at all but for some strange reason i decided to give him a chance and its been 5 months since we been together however i feel empty inside and im really n desperate need to figure out y i cant open up and luv him just need someone whos like a diary to talk to

By Sitha Gail, Thursday, March 05, 2009 12:44:24 PM
Everybody Sylvia is a really busy person as you can tell, I am sorry for her. She never gets too rest properly and believe me I have a few psychic abilities and there is millions of millions of people in need. My aunt always said patience is a vertue. soo please believe she knows we all need her, but it is impossible for her to get to everyone. Try writing on all her blog pages and as I can see on her web casts dont make it too long. I really dont know her personally, but the lady knows what shes doing and she has two great spirit guides too lead her to tell us what is really immediately important such as her predictions. So please dont get mad at her, she is too kind hearted and think positive not negative.

By wendy, Thursday, March 05, 2009 11:21:37 AM
Thank you to chris for responding to my post. The doctors thought my son was having seizures also, but then showed no signs of them during the testing. I think i will take your advice in getting a MRI done for him, it may be the answer we need or may not, whatever the outcome, i will not give up. Thank you once again and God bless you! wendy.s.

By Wendy, Thursday, March 05, 2009 02:10:32 AM
Dear Lupe, I am still Praying For You. I haven't stopped since I read your post. I am glad you read my post. I did not want you to cry, I wanted to let you know you are not alone. I don't want you to feel so helpless like I felt when my little boy past away. I know now that people cared, but were afraid to show it. God was there, but I didn't realize it till years later. I haven't seen any response from Sylvia on this site. I went on Sylvia.org which lead me to her Spiritus Novus site and to information about the radio station she is on to answer questions on Thursdays. But I decided that perhaps this is a good place for us to help each other as we may have similar experiences and maybe that is a good way for us to heal together So, Lupe, I still am sending you my hugs(mentally)and prayers. May the Angels surround and protect you. Wendy J.

By chris, Thursday, March 05, 2009 01:17:25 AM
this is to wendy that posted a comment here. tue. 03/03. it sounds to me that your son could be having siesures. does he seem to get real tired or sleepy just before this happens with him? i started having siesures myself last aug. due to adnormal blood vesells in the brain and it kinda sounds similar to my situation. i'd have him see a neurologist had have them run a mri, or cat scan if they havent already.an eeg doesn't always prove anything, it didn't for me. chris.

By Mary, Wednesday, March 04, 2009 09:27:29 AM
hello syslvia, i am asking for spiritual help in trying to figure out how my son in law took a nasty turn on me and my husband and i do not know why, my 4 year grand son was malested by our other 14 year old son, in june and july of 2008, and sence then our son in law has distance himself away from us and so not want my grand son around us, and we were suprised to know that the older grand son has done some things with the little one and it,s certainly not our fault, and he knows it. what do you feel is problem all of this time, this doesn,t make sence, that he doesn,t want my grand child around us like we are animals, or like we let that happen to the kid.

By lupe, Tuesday, March 03, 2009 06:35:51 PM
YES BETTY I FEEL THE SAME ,I WRITE SYLVIA AND SHE NEVER ANSWER,ONE BEAUTIFUL LADY NAME WENDY ANSWER ME WENT I READ HER ANSWER TO ME I CRY ,I FELL LOST AND SO DAM HURT IS NOT FANNY ANYWAY I THANK YOU WENDY YOU MAKE MY DAY A LOT BETTER ;AND PLEASE KEEP PRAYING FOR MELI AND FOR MY SOUL AND MY HEARTH HEAL ON TIME .I THINK GOD IS HIDING AND IS NOT ANSWER MY PRAYERS AND I TALK TO HIM EVERYDAY .SO THANK YOU MY DEAR WENDY ONLY THE ONES THE LOST A CHILD KNOWS THE PAIN WE ARE KEEPING IN OUR LIVES